Out of Grief comes Art

Out of grief comes art: Denial

Wed, 22 May 2013 07:51:00 -0400

Face to face yet again.

The honesty rushes in-

No more hiding.

No more excuses

or compensation.

- Like an overwhelming pressure

pushing at the sides of my body like I’m going to expand into oblivion

I won’t feel. I can feel.

I’ll let myself. I’ll try.

I wish I could turn off this machinery in my head. The thoughts come a mile a minute. It stalls me, frozen in time. Separated from reality.

I wish I could immerse in and accept

(2.3.13)

Out of grief comes art: Depression

Wed, 22 May 2013 07:36:29 -0400

Consciousness means suffering.

Living is penetrating painful.

I must work to find the joy.

To what level should we allow ourselves to feel?

I feel with my whole being-

Repair takes longer

(4.18.13)

Out of grief comes art: Bargaining

Wed, 22 May 2013 07:32:00 -0400

A conundrum we live in

People bring great joy into our lives, along with great sorrow and destruction

They build you higher and push you lower

They can drag you down

They are work.

But we need them, and we need to be needed.

We need to help others.

It’s a delicate balance. There aren’t answers. It’s an ever going game of realizations. questions.

And so we continue on. learning, discovering, growing and knowing.

What does it all mean, and where do innate values come from? They make it impossible to live selfishly.

They act as chains.

And why. What birthed these ideas in my being?

Life shapes us, but what about the enigma of what we are before we are shaped and after our body goes. The mysterious soul. The mysterious “you-ness.” Where does it come from?

(5.1.13)

Out of grief comes art: Anger

Wed, 22 May 2013 06:57:00 -0400

I feel broken and betrayed.

I pushed and pushed, and he went away.

I’m mad.

I’m mad you weren’t what I needed. I’m mad I didn’t want you.

I wanted you to be different.

I suppose I didn’t want you.

I wanted someone.

But,

I’m still mad.

I’m mad I let it go on for so long.

I loved being opened up, and I loved being loved.

But, mostly,

I’m mad at you, Mom.

livid, consuming

mad.

Why couldn’t you be there for me,

Why couldn’t you love me?

It’s sickening.

You taught me to be cold.

I’m mad.

(5.2.13)

Out of grief comes art: Acceptance

Wed, 22 May 2013 06:36:00 -0400

You can’t make people love you

Your rejection has made me sensitive, loving, and open.

Expressive, empathetic, compassionate,

Strong, self-confident, and assertive.

Bold, fearless, and certain.

Able to be me.

You’ve unlocked what I always wanted-

unconditional love.

I have a wealth of it now. A limitless supply. I learned it can come from within.

I’ll walk with courage into the fire of my emotions again and again.

You won’t find me afraid to feel.

(5.22.13)

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Wed, 22 May 2013 01:56:14 -0400

humansofnewyork: “Put me on the internet! Even on The Google!”

Wed, 22 May 2013 01:56:10 -0400

humansofnewyork:

“Put me on the internet! Even on The Google!”

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Wed, 22 May 2013 01:56:02 -0400

humansofnewyork: “Where’d you grow up?” “We’re growing up right...

Wed, 22 May 2013 01:55:47 -0400

humansofnewyork:

“Where’d you grow up?”
“We’re growing up right now.”

(Cambridge, MA)

humansofnewyork: “I had to quit music when I had kids because I...

Wed, 22 May 2013 01:55:39 -0400

humansofnewyork:

“I had to quit music when I had kids because I spent all my time on them.”

“Do you regret it?”

“Absolutely not, because when I picked up the guitar again, the music came out different.”

Way Out by Markus Wachter

Tue, 21 May 2013 18:19:20 -0400

Way Out by Markus Wachter

"Incredible change happens in your life when you decide to take control of what you do have power..."

Tue, 21 May 2013 18:10:21 -0400

“Incredible change happens in your life when you decide to take control of what you do have power over instead of craving control over what you don’t.”

- Steve Maraboli

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Tue, 21 May 2013 18:09:36 -0400

crying

Tue, 21 May 2013 18:04:15 -0400

crying

Condom commercial written and directed by a...

Tue, 21 May 2013 17:56:22 -0400

Condom commercial written and directed by a woman. Condoms don’t need to be sexy, we just need to know that they’ll work! Fucking brilliant.

"That is why it is so important to let certain things go. To release them. To cut loose. People need..."

Tue, 21 May 2013 17:53:25 -0400

“That is why it is so important to let certain things go. To release them. To cut loose. People need to understand that no one is playing with marked cards; sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Don’t expect to get anything back, don’t expect recognition for your efforts, don’t expect your genius to be discovered or your love to be understood. Complete the circle. Not out of pride, inability or arrogance, but simply because whatever it is no longer fits in your life. Close the door, change the record, clean the house, get rid of the dust. Stop being who you were and become who you are.”

- Paulo Coehlo

"Instead of focusing on how much you can accomplish, focus on how much you can absolutely love what..."

Tue, 21 May 2013 17:52:41 -0400

“Instead of focusing on how much you can accomplish, focus on how much you can absolutely love what you’re doing.”

- Leo Babauta

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Tue, 21 May 2013 17:50:27 -0400

"Life will never be perfect no matter how hard you try. Even if you pour your heart and soul into it,..."

Wed, 08 May 2013 23:02:14 -0400

“Life will never be perfect no matter how hard you try. Even if you pour your heart and soul into it, you will never have that perfection you seek. There will always be broken hearts. There will always be days where nothing goes right. But I have accepted and learned that even the most imperfect things will always be made better with love, laughter and joy.”

- Jae Bliss

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Wed, 08 May 2013 22:36:41 -0400